The intention to use camera like Alice’s rabbit hole is to open an unexplored world, a place of provocative self-expression. A world of new relationships, new chances new beginnings and most importantly new stories. My choice of subject comes from intuition especially in day-dream without rational reasoning. I seek the unknown in form of textures, grotesque compositions and look for the light within the shadows. The stories that are somehow ambiguous which eventually creates havoc within the subconscious state of the viewer. Which is familiar yet not known which later gradually unfolds. I immerse myself in the fire of the other, the potential it carries within itself intrigues me, inspires me, arouses me. This arousal compels me to make love to the subject matter, which results in form of a photograph.
Inspired by an axiom of Simone De Beauvoir’s The Second Sex” Life starts with a collapse; without a doubt! She was ready to live this traumatized terrain promising herself to become invisible. The torment in her soul inevitably kept this quest going throughout her life. There is something sinister about your body — told by the society. Her sexuality was under obnoxious scrutiny and was protected. Ideas and values of femininity were injected in her day and night. Although she was born a Human, but she became a Woman. The eyes she used to explore herself and life, weren’t hers actually. Yes, she had eyes nonetheless she did not have gaze. It was male gaze all along. She was seeing the seen but she was not the seer. By and by he turned her pliant nature into nothing but an ossified conundrum. Dedicated to my philosophy teacher; Shehzad Amjad.